Tuesday, January 8, 2008
The world is happy or atleast it should be.
Hello dearlings. How is everyone? I feel bad because I had an amazing day yesterday and didn't really get to share the amazingness with anyone. It is sort of sad, but okay anyway. So I guess I will elaborate on the amazingness. I don't know my classes are going to be really easy. My chem class is stuff that I have already learned because I dropped down into the easier stuff. It is okay though because it is the stuff that I need to be learning. Woot woot. Then my Calculus is going to be really easy and such. I can't wait. Then I was stressing about not being able to get in to the top undergraduate choir here. I was afraid and nervouse and ended up getting in to the choir. It was fun. It was crazy singing with a choir that was actually a choir. Omgosh the sound was amazing. It sounded like music. It was a bit strong for my taste and I like the the sound of a soft choir. But it is all good. I am just glad that I get to add to the sound. Be able to say that I am part of it. Woot woot. Next the most random and sort of amazing thing happened to me. I was walking down the hall to go get food or something and I was walking behind this guy. I cought him catching a glance at me but I didn't really see his face. I walk for a little bit longer but his song sounded VERY familiar. It was going to drive me nuts. Then I figured out who it was. I chuckled and was like Jon Mears? He turned around and said hi. It was crazy seeing him. He has changed a LOT!!!! Anyone looking at him now will think GAY!!! No joke. He had a strut also. It was really funny. He looked good but kind of slutty also. It was odd. I was sort of baffaled by him. Anyway the conversation lasted for a few min because he had to go some were. Nextly I went on a walk with Hilde to go get books. The grand total was 418. It was crazy. And that was buying one of them used. One I tried to buy used but they didn't have any. It was sad. It wasn't amazing spending money but it was fun to talk with Hilde. I feel bad for her. She isn't going to have a very good quarter. She is trying to fill her days with tons of things to do and to meet people. When she SHOULD be sleeping and trying to STUDY like she said she would. She is crazy but it is all good. Ohh well. .. . she will see eventually. Woot woot. Anyway it was a really amazing day yesterday and today was good also. I went to the gym and it was actually fun to work out. Ohhh man I think the world is starting to look up again. Woot woot.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Kim. .. . I LOVE YOU!!!!
Well here I am again once again and I am going to bleed my heart to the world. You don't really have to listen at all babes. I am just writing this to write right now. I need to get some things out of my mind and I think that you Kim my dear can help me the most right now. I am weary. So tired. I am living a meaningless existance. I don't have anything to live for right now. I am not saying ANYTHING about suicide but I am wondering where I heading and what my meaning is in life. You know what the sad part is though I KNOW what it is that I have to do. I am just . . . . well scared. . . . petrifired. . . . to prideful. . . . . I have errored. I know that I have. I need to trun to God. I KNOW that is what I need to get on with my life. Everytime I look in myself I see the cloth and it is so black right now. That is all I can see. It hurts to see that I have let myself get this bad. I am not humble.. . . . kind. . . forgiving . . . I am nothing. I am everything that I don't want to be. I started to take pride in what people told me was good about me and now I am lost. Because in finally believing what people told me about myself I took it for granted. I am lost. I need God and I know he is right there. I can feel him with his hand on my shoulder. I know that he is right there. I can feel him but for some reason I am finding it REALLY hard to look at him. I can just turn around and surrender myself to him again. I don't know why and it is making me sad. I will get there with some time I know this with all my heart. I just want it so bad. I don't know . . . . I feel like I have wronged him and in doing so he is still willing to love me but I don't feel like I should take it. Mostly because I don't love myself right now. WOW. . .. . hummmm. . . anyway. So that is what I am talking about right now.
There are other things going on right now also. It doesn't take that much to read to far into me. I don't know. I am angry at the world because they are not seeing the world through my eyes right now and not being hurt by it. I see the world as a crul place with hurt and pain. The world is opened up to me now that I can see all the bad things also. I used to be very good at only seeing the good things. Not taking notice of the bad things and not letting them getting to me. I don't know, a rock can only stay a rock so long as the waves don't beat against it. I don't know.
I got into a fight with my dad last night. He was telling me to do something a way I didn't want to. I was being stubborn and not doing it his way. I ended up at the same place but in a different manner. I wanted to prove to him that I didn't need to have him to tell me to do something. I needed to show him that he can't control me anymore. Then he got mad at me. And I feel bad because it did open his eyes. It made him see that I was capable. Then he gave me a bunch of resemes to look over (that is what we were arguing about). I had to pick out the ones that I thought would do the best job. I picked the ones that he thought were good also. He saw that I can make good choices. I showed him that I was able to make good adult choices. Choices that HE would have made. It changed his views of me. It was for the better I think. It still feels odd.
Today though I got into an argument with my mom. I went shopping with her. I don't want to go into detail because it makes me sad to say this next part. I don't like the person my mom is. She isn't the person I thought she was. I really did see her as a kind, giving, happy person. She really isn't all all. She gossips like crazy, stabs people in the back, lazy, pushy to people that she can be pushy with because she is pushed around, and all of this is just a surface. She doesn't really have any depth. For years she has just flouted on by, she has no depth. I don't like the person my mom is. I can get along with her, but I don't have to like her. And that is what makes me sad. The fact that I can say that and not feel anything hint of lie in myself. I see that now but I wish it was different. My dad is sort of shallow also, but in a different sense. He is shallow because he lets no one see into the depths. I can see there is more to everything but like glass you can't go through it.
Anyway, so now that I have realized that I love my parents to death, but don't really have anything in relation to them it makes me sad. I don't know I keep getting this dropping feeling in my stomach. It is making me sick. I hate this. Why can't things just go back to the way they were. I was happy there, but not truely happy I guess. I lived in a make believe world. My dad was right then. Saying that I was in for a rude awaking to the world. Well I just woke up and I want to go back to sleep already. I don't like the world I live in and I want to change it and the first way I have to this is to change the person that I am. Anyway, so I am done now and I know what I have to do. Thank you Kim and your guidance.
There are other things going on right now also. It doesn't take that much to read to far into me. I don't know. I am angry at the world because they are not seeing the world through my eyes right now and not being hurt by it. I see the world as a crul place with hurt and pain. The world is opened up to me now that I can see all the bad things also. I used to be very good at only seeing the good things. Not taking notice of the bad things and not letting them getting to me. I don't know, a rock can only stay a rock so long as the waves don't beat against it. I don't know.
I got into a fight with my dad last night. He was telling me to do something a way I didn't want to. I was being stubborn and not doing it his way. I ended up at the same place but in a different manner. I wanted to prove to him that I didn't need to have him to tell me to do something. I needed to show him that he can't control me anymore. Then he got mad at me. And I feel bad because it did open his eyes. It made him see that I was capable. Then he gave me a bunch of resemes to look over (that is what we were arguing about). I had to pick out the ones that I thought would do the best job. I picked the ones that he thought were good also. He saw that I can make good choices. I showed him that I was able to make good adult choices. Choices that HE would have made. It changed his views of me. It was for the better I think. It still feels odd.
Today though I got into an argument with my mom. I went shopping with her. I don't want to go into detail because it makes me sad to say this next part. I don't like the person my mom is. She isn't the person I thought she was. I really did see her as a kind, giving, happy person. She really isn't all all. She gossips like crazy, stabs people in the back, lazy, pushy to people that she can be pushy with because she is pushed around, and all of this is just a surface. She doesn't really have any depth. For years she has just flouted on by, she has no depth. I don't like the person my mom is. I can get along with her, but I don't have to like her. And that is what makes me sad. The fact that I can say that and not feel anything hint of lie in myself. I see that now but I wish it was different. My dad is sort of shallow also, but in a different sense. He is shallow because he lets no one see into the depths. I can see there is more to everything but like glass you can't go through it.
Anyway, so now that I have realized that I love my parents to death, but don't really have anything in relation to them it makes me sad. I don't know I keep getting this dropping feeling in my stomach. It is making me sick. I hate this. Why can't things just go back to the way they were. I was happy there, but not truely happy I guess. I lived in a make believe world. My dad was right then. Saying that I was in for a rude awaking to the world. Well I just woke up and I want to go back to sleep already. I don't like the world I live in and I want to change it and the first way I have to this is to change the person that I am. Anyway, so I am done now and I know what I have to do. Thank you Kim and your guidance.
Monday, December 3, 2007
From Stone to Marble
Wow it has been a while. Well lets see what there is to say. My mid terms when okay. Not amazing but just good. I have been working on a bunch of school papers and such. And it has been just amazing and such lately. I am starting to really find my place. I really didn't think I would. I am glad that people flock to me. I don't want to seem arrogent or anything but people just are always around me. I think it might actually be because of my personailty. I don't really know why because I see so many bad flaws in it. But I love everyone that is around me right now. Being in my fig has really helped me. The one thing that I hate about college is that fact that I can't invite people into my home. There isn't enough room in my half of the room to do that. You all know how I am also. I want to open my home, because I feel like that is my contribution to group things. This was all brought up by the fact that I went to a party at Molly's house. It was amazing and fun. It was really good and almost felt like the good old times. Just with new people. The group over here is Kat, Nicole, Gianna, Molly, Allie, Wade, and Adam, with the random people that are included but are not the core. I don't know it feels good to be part of something and it sort of makes me want to cry because I feel like I have friends here that are almost as great as you all are, just different. I love life even with all the finals starting next week. I have one on tuesday and one on wednesday.
On other news, I am not really killing old habits, but I have finally almost gotten controll over them because it isn't looked down upon. It was really odd, but it is the liberal state of mind. I am finally opened up the world that rages around me also. But I am building my world once again. That is where the friends come in. I love that. You know you guys were my sanctary. Comeing here I had a very small one with Hilde that was subject to fall at anytime given Hildes personality. Now I feel like I have a larger one and like I said it feels good. So all in all this post it ment to tell all that still read this that I am doing really well and adjusting finally. I guess the base still has to be moved if it wants to hold things up as it did before. I tried to stay the same person I was because I liked that person and it worked well. I knew who I was, and why I did everything. Comeing here with different people, different place and different feel, the base had to adapt to it. Which I am finally done with almost. Just have a few things left and I still have retained my base values just with a bit of a more. It was a base but now it is a collum. I guess it the best way to put it. Woot woot. I love you all like crazy though and I can't wait to see each and everyone of you because you are the ones that let me and taught me were to grow.
On other news, I am not really killing old habits, but I have finally almost gotten controll over them because it isn't looked down upon. It was really odd, but it is the liberal state of mind. I am finally opened up the world that rages around me also. But I am building my world once again. That is where the friends come in. I love that. You know you guys were my sanctary. Comeing here I had a very small one with Hilde that was subject to fall at anytime given Hildes personality. Now I feel like I have a larger one and like I said it feels good. So all in all this post it ment to tell all that still read this that I am doing really well and adjusting finally. I guess the base still has to be moved if it wants to hold things up as it did before. I tried to stay the same person I was because I liked that person and it worked well. I knew who I was, and why I did everything. Comeing here with different people, different place and different feel, the base had to adapt to it. Which I am finally done with almost. Just have a few things left and I still have retained my base values just with a bit of a more. It was a base but now it is a collum. I guess it the best way to put it. Woot woot. I love you all like crazy though and I can't wait to see each and everyone of you because you are the ones that let me and taught me were to grow.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
I am happy!!!
Well hi everyone that ever reads these things. Have I got things to tell you. Well lets start off with why I haven't be able to get post a blog about my measly life in a while. It was because of my midterms. Ohh well right. It is all good. I got a good score, on my marie biology, and an not so good score on my chem. But oddly I am still passing because it is on a bell curve. But I chose to drop down next quarter to 220 because it is easier and better taught and not nearly as much compitition in the class. That is a good thing. Also next quarter I am taking Calc with biology sort of deal. It is odd it is like how math is applicable to biology. It should prove to be interesting. Then lastly I am taking a class called perspectives of science. It is all about how we can take scientific theory as true. It sould be really fun I think.
Now for the other stuff that has been going on in my life. Well so lets start off, I have been doing a lot of Christmas shopping and such. I have my sister and my mom done. I also have Tia's present which I know that she is going to love and hate me for. Ohh well it is all good. As for everyone else I have absolutly no clue what I am going to do. Really I have no clue at all. But I got a really nice Christmas CD. So that was really nice.
OHH and guess what. The Branden finally went on his first real date. It was a blind date set up by Hilde and Maria. It was with Zack. He is a really cool guy I must admit. And I wasn't trying to force myself to click with him. It just happened. I was actually trying to not like him because I didn't really want to like anyone yet, but I sort of do but it isn't an overwellming feeling. Which is nice. Ohh well right. He is just a really cool guy right now.
Okay so yeah that is about the summation of this past week. I just can't wait to be home for Thanksgiving. I want to see my family and friends really badly. It is almost a physical hole in my heart to think about them. It is okay though becuase it grows smaller with each day here. Time can heal all wounds if you let it. Woot woot.
Anyway I am off to take a shower and then do two labs. YEY for me.
Now for the other stuff that has been going on in my life. Well so lets start off, I have been doing a lot of Christmas shopping and such. I have my sister and my mom done. I also have Tia's present which I know that she is going to love and hate me for. Ohh well it is all good. As for everyone else I have absolutly no clue what I am going to do. Really I have no clue at all. But I got a really nice Christmas CD. So that was really nice.
OHH and guess what. The Branden finally went on his first real date. It was a blind date set up by Hilde and Maria. It was with Zack. He is a really cool guy I must admit. And I wasn't trying to force myself to click with him. It just happened. I was actually trying to not like him because I didn't really want to like anyone yet, but I sort of do but it isn't an overwellming feeling. Which is nice. Ohh well right. He is just a really cool guy right now.
Okay so yeah that is about the summation of this past week. I just can't wait to be home for Thanksgiving. I want to see my family and friends really badly. It is almost a physical hole in my heart to think about them. It is okay though becuase it grows smaller with each day here. Time can heal all wounds if you let it. Woot woot.
Anyway I am off to take a shower and then do two labs. YEY for me.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
A good Week and hard but good
I guess I should fill you all in about what has been going on in the life of me. Well. . . all in all. . . it is very good. I had a bit of a hard start this week, and last week wasn't really fun and was all at the same time. Last week I got sick for the first time in forever and it wasn't all that much fun but it was all good. You can't always beat it. But it was okay because it was the week of Halloween. The weekend befor that I went to a haunted house. It was really fun and really scary. I came out trembling and everyone else was like bah that wasn't scary at all. I was really scared but it was fun. Then we went to the haunted collems on campus and it was really fun.
For Halloween I stayed in with Kat and we watched Sleepy Hallow, then Corpse Bride, then we ended the night with A Walk to Remember because I have never seen it all the way through. It was a really good movie. Loved it. It was a good night where nothing happened.
This last weekend was good and fun because I went to the Friday Harbor Labs and did some expiriments for my marine biology class. It was really fun. I loved it and I got to spend some time with Osinie and Megan. It was really cool and fun. It was a good confrimation of what I wanted to do. Not to mention spending two hours trying to figure out a fish that we had to identify. It was interesting because we had three males and four females and the guys well lets say they have some really distinct parts that give them away, and we didn't know what they were. It was odd. And funny, we laught for a long time about that because it was at like 9 at night and we had woken up at like 6 to get these fish. It was awsome.
But sunday kind of sucked for me because I was way behind on homework. So monday due to lack of sleep it wasn't a good day = bad week start. Tuesday was bad because I was still behind but now I am good and caught up and having fun again. I hate it when my routine is broken.
All through out this however, I am glad that Hilde is now back to who she was, because she found out that she wasn't really friends with the people she thought she was, and it was just good in general. I am happy and sad, but it is okay. No matter, I am happy.
Branden's love life is still null and void, but that is okay. I am having a good time and it might not be that way much longer because I am getting my foot in the door to a few people that I am interested in and testing the waters. I don't know much more to say.
Life is good. . . ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and my songs have returned which brings back a lot of memorries and fun times, but many new things I didn't hear. But they have changed and sometimes have pictures. It is odd, and cool. No worries. I love being me right now even if the time is chaotic. I just can't wait to get back home and see my family. I miss them all really badly.
Don't expect another post for a week or so becaus I have two midterms next week and they are one right after the other on the same day. Sucky I know but ohh well what can you do. Loves babes
Can't wait to see you all again.
~Branden
For Halloween I stayed in with Kat and we watched Sleepy Hallow, then Corpse Bride, then we ended the night with A Walk to Remember because I have never seen it all the way through. It was a really good movie. Loved it. It was a good night where nothing happened.
This last weekend was good and fun because I went to the Friday Harbor Labs and did some expiriments for my marine biology class. It was really fun. I loved it and I got to spend some time with Osinie and Megan. It was really cool and fun. It was a good confrimation of what I wanted to do. Not to mention spending two hours trying to figure out a fish that we had to identify. It was interesting because we had three males and four females and the guys well lets say they have some really distinct parts that give them away, and we didn't know what they were. It was odd. And funny, we laught for a long time about that because it was at like 9 at night and we had woken up at like 6 to get these fish. It was awsome.
But sunday kind of sucked for me because I was way behind on homework. So monday due to lack of sleep it wasn't a good day = bad week start. Tuesday was bad because I was still behind but now I am good and caught up and having fun again. I hate it when my routine is broken.
All through out this however, I am glad that Hilde is now back to who she was, because she found out that she wasn't really friends with the people she thought she was, and it was just good in general. I am happy and sad, but it is okay. No matter, I am happy.
Branden's love life is still null and void, but that is okay. I am having a good time and it might not be that way much longer because I am getting my foot in the door to a few people that I am interested in and testing the waters. I don't know much more to say.
Life is good. . . ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and my songs have returned which brings back a lot of memorries and fun times, but many new things I didn't hear. But they have changed and sometimes have pictures. It is odd, and cool. No worries. I love being me right now even if the time is chaotic. I just can't wait to get back home and see my family. I miss them all really badly.
Don't expect another post for a week or so becaus I have two midterms next week and they are one right after the other on the same day. Sucky I know but ohh well what can you do. Loves babes
Can't wait to see you all again.
~Branden
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Long time no Talk
Okay so there is a ton of things that I have to fill you in on my dears. Such as the fact that I am really kind of hyper, happy, sad, and not well comfortable. Like I always have been thanks to you guys I have always been comfortable with what ever and were ever I am. Now I am not and I am very slow at finding my place in this campus. I think I did find it though. The ocean and fishery sciences. No one really gives me odd looks and it isn't confusing. I don't know I just feel like I fit in there. Yey for that. Okay less depressing things. Last time I checking in with all of you was homesick. Well my mom and sister came up this weekend, and it was great to see them but I realized that I really did want to leave in the first place. I love them to death don't get me wrong, but seeing them was like seeing a wasteland that I call the tri-cites. Everything moves much slower there. I like that, but only for a bit I think. I like it here. I really do, but I don't know it still is missing something that I need, so I know this wont be my final stop in life.
BTW I am acually getting sick. I hurts to talk. I think I might be getting a sore throught. EWWW. that is never fun.
Okay so my brithday was amazing. I hung out with really cool people and did amazing things. We went to dinner instead of iceskating, went to a party and QFC which is a grocery store instead of Neighbors which is the gay club, and then watched a movie which I left half was threw. It was fun. I have a very good time. Then to top it off my mom and sister were here for the weekend. I watched Hairspray which was a great movie. Then we also watched Pirates of the Carrabien also. I LOVE THAT MOVIE. It was my first time seeing the last one. It was so romantic and I had dreams about it. It was just an amazing movie. Well okay so that was all good and dandy.
That about sums up my B-day fiasco. Then to the social things. I actally went to the GSA club meeting and it was actually good. AKA not just a bunch of high school guys gathering to talk about sex. It was good and I think it might actually be benificel for me to actually go there regualrly. I am also working on a guy. Just to let you know and it he really cool, but I think we might just end up as friends. I am still working out reguarly and I am actually gaining weight. Which is a good thing because I LOOK like I am losing it. I am putting on muscle. I am happy with me right now. I think I might actally be able to shop at A&F or Hollister and get the clothes that I like and actally have a sence of taste once I loose a few more pounds so to say.
School is going great for me. I am not over burderdened. Which is nice. I have just he right about of stuff to do. I should be doing homework right now because I have to do TWO labs and a pre-lab. That is okay though. It wont take that long I don't think. They were pretty easy things. I did take two of my mid terms. The marine biology one was nice. I think I did realyl good on it, but this little voice in the back of my head is like YOU FAILED. Which is wouldn't be suprised actually because I tend to remeber the things I self taught myself, and some of that was wrong. So that was that. THe chem fianl was easy. I only missed one problem I think because I had NO idea how to do it.
So other then that I think you are about as up-dated as you could possible be. Let me think, Birthday, Social, School and friends. Okay so the friends issue is starting to get on my nerves because I find that people change on according to who they are closest to. I do it also. It sucks, but atleast TRY to remain true to yourself if nothing else. Some people don't even do that. It makes me angry that people can change so fast. Ohh well really I guess. I can't help peoples personalities. Woot woot
So that covers it. I am happy though. I have got things off my chest and I am going to go to the gym because it closes at 6 and I didn't workout on friday. Woot woot. So I am going to leave you to read my sencelessness.
If you are reading thing that means I love you like the day is long. and more then you will ever know.
~Branden
BTW I am acually getting sick. I hurts to talk. I think I might be getting a sore throught. EWWW. that is never fun.
Okay so my brithday was amazing. I hung out with really cool people and did amazing things. We went to dinner instead of iceskating, went to a party and QFC which is a grocery store instead of Neighbors which is the gay club, and then watched a movie which I left half was threw. It was fun. I have a very good time. Then to top it off my mom and sister were here for the weekend. I watched Hairspray which was a great movie. Then we also watched Pirates of the Carrabien also. I LOVE THAT MOVIE. It was my first time seeing the last one. It was so romantic and I had dreams about it. It was just an amazing movie. Well okay so that was all good and dandy.
That about sums up my B-day fiasco. Then to the social things. I actally went to the GSA club meeting and it was actually good. AKA not just a bunch of high school guys gathering to talk about sex. It was good and I think it might actually be benificel for me to actually go there regualrly. I am also working on a guy. Just to let you know and it he really cool, but I think we might just end up as friends. I am still working out reguarly and I am actually gaining weight. Which is a good thing because I LOOK like I am losing it. I am putting on muscle. I am happy with me right now. I think I might actally be able to shop at A&F or Hollister and get the clothes that I like and actally have a sence of taste once I loose a few more pounds so to say.
School is going great for me. I am not over burderdened. Which is nice. I have just he right about of stuff to do. I should be doing homework right now because I have to do TWO labs and a pre-lab. That is okay though. It wont take that long I don't think. They were pretty easy things. I did take two of my mid terms. The marine biology one was nice. I think I did realyl good on it, but this little voice in the back of my head is like YOU FAILED. Which is wouldn't be suprised actually because I tend to remeber the things I self taught myself, and some of that was wrong. So that was that. THe chem fianl was easy. I only missed one problem I think because I had NO idea how to do it.
So other then that I think you are about as up-dated as you could possible be. Let me think, Birthday, Social, School and friends. Okay so the friends issue is starting to get on my nerves because I find that people change on according to who they are closest to. I do it also. It sucks, but atleast TRY to remain true to yourself if nothing else. Some people don't even do that. It makes me angry that people can change so fast. Ohh well really I guess. I can't help peoples personalities. Woot woot
So that covers it. I am happy though. I have got things off my chest and I am going to go to the gym because it closes at 6 and I didn't workout on friday. Woot woot. So I am going to leave you to read my sencelessness.
If you are reading thing that means I love you like the day is long. and more then you will ever know.
~Branden
Monday, October 8, 2007
The weekend!!!
I don't really know what to write about right now, so I guess I will give you an update on my life. There isn't anything to say much. I am just sort of waiting still. It really kind of sucks. But that is okay, I am determined to fix that. But any way so this weekend was really kind of fun. I actually came out of my slump of missing home and was like people. If you can imagin with me for a second. I think it was kind of like a badly bruised squirral, that desided to look out the hole even though it was badly bruised. I don't know this week hasn't been hard I guess, this is just starting to ride on me. I am getting to know people. The right kind of people. I am conflicted still because I did try to make and honest effort to be friends with Hilde's roommate, but I can't. She is just not my kind of person. I am tried to tell Hilde that but Hilde claims that she is good for her. And I can see where in part she is, but I still think the bad out weights the good. Anyway, I think I might just stop stressing over that. Anyway, I am staying on top of all my school stuff like crazy. I haven't been pushed to get anything done really quick. AKA, I think college is a breeze compared to last year so far. I am doing good for what I am right now. There are some really cool people on my floor and I am starting to really like them. One, his name is Josh, was part of the drum core. So naturally we clicked. He is a cool guy, sadly he is straight. But unlike the guys in the TC guys here have no adversion to hanging out with me. Which is awsome. I don't know I am happy hear it is just that I am working really hard to change my surroundings again. I did that all through high school. I never really noticed it actually, till I was trust into a new area. Like as in I am now having to find the good and the bad, and seperate it. Here though it is a lot let clear and defined. Which is what is mostly getting me down I guess. Time is all I need, just time. Sadly though that isn't what a person like me wants to here with no patients. So anyway, I think I will let you guys go with the actual sum of events this weekend.
Friday, Hilde and that group went to a frat party. I hung out with them while they were getting ready. Came home at like 11 and watched ghost stories till 12. The next day I hung out with Hilde's group again and we all went to pike street market and had fun there. Then went out with Hilde's mom and every one. It was really fun. Came home to finish homework while they went shopping. Ended up hanging out with Nicoloe, Kat and Josh. Talked what was like forever, and watched Moulin Rouge. It was amazing. Then sunday I actually did my homework all morning. Hung out with Kat Josh and Zoie. Then I am here after finally falling asleep at 2 in the morning because dumb people like to play cards till that time in the morning. It was aggrivating. Ohh well it is all good.
Summed up, good weekend, hard week, missing everyone, but refuse to let myself get down!!!!
LOVES~
Branden
Friday, Hilde and that group went to a frat party. I hung out with them while they were getting ready. Came home at like 11 and watched ghost stories till 12. The next day I hung out with Hilde's group again and we all went to pike street market and had fun there. Then went out with Hilde's mom and every one. It was really fun. Came home to finish homework while they went shopping. Ended up hanging out with Nicoloe, Kat and Josh. Talked what was like forever, and watched Moulin Rouge. It was amazing. Then sunday I actually did my homework all morning. Hung out with Kat Josh and Zoie. Then I am here after finally falling asleep at 2 in the morning because dumb people like to play cards till that time in the morning. It was aggrivating. Ohh well it is all good.
Summed up, good weekend, hard week, missing everyone, but refuse to let myself get down!!!!
LOVES~
Branden
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