Monday, December 3, 2007

From Stone to Marble

Wow it has been a while. Well lets see what there is to say. My mid terms when okay. Not amazing but just good. I have been working on a bunch of school papers and such. And it has been just amazing and such lately. I am starting to really find my place. I really didn't think I would. I am glad that people flock to me. I don't want to seem arrogent or anything but people just are always around me. I think it might actually be because of my personailty. I don't really know why because I see so many bad flaws in it. But I love everyone that is around me right now. Being in my fig has really helped me. The one thing that I hate about college is that fact that I can't invite people into my home. There isn't enough room in my half of the room to do that. You all know how I am also. I want to open my home, because I feel like that is my contribution to group things. This was all brought up by the fact that I went to a party at Molly's house. It was amazing and fun. It was really good and almost felt like the good old times. Just with new people. The group over here is Kat, Nicole, Gianna, Molly, Allie, Wade, and Adam, with the random people that are included but are not the core. I don't know it feels good to be part of something and it sort of makes me want to cry because I feel like I have friends here that are almost as great as you all are, just different. I love life even with all the finals starting next week. I have one on tuesday and one on wednesday.

On other news, I am not really killing old habits, but I have finally almost gotten controll over them because it isn't looked down upon. It was really odd, but it is the liberal state of mind. I am finally opened up the world that rages around me also. But I am building my world once again. That is where the friends come in. I love that. You know you guys were my sanctary. Comeing here I had a very small one with Hilde that was subject to fall at anytime given Hildes personality. Now I feel like I have a larger one and like I said it feels good. So all in all this post it ment to tell all that still read this that I am doing really well and adjusting finally. I guess the base still has to be moved if it wants to hold things up as it did before. I tried to stay the same person I was because I liked that person and it worked well. I knew who I was, and why I did everything. Comeing here with different people, different place and different feel, the base had to adapt to it. Which I am finally done with almost. Just have a few things left and I still have retained my base values just with a bit of a more. It was a base but now it is a collum. I guess it the best way to put it. Woot woot. I love you all like crazy though and I can't wait to see each and everyone of you because you are the ones that let me and taught me were to grow.