Long time no Talk

Okay so there is a ton of things that I have to fill you in on my dears. Such as the fact that I am really kind of hyper, happy, sad, and not well comfortable. Like I always have been thanks to you guys I have always been comfortable with what ever and were ever I am. Now I am not and I am very slow at finding my place in this campus. I think I did find it though. The ocean and fishery sciences. No one really gives me odd looks and it isn't confusing. I don't know I just feel like I fit in there. Yey for that. Okay less depressing things. Last time I checking in with all of you was homesick. Well my mom and sister came up this weekend, and it was great to see them but I realized that I really did want to leave in the first place. I love them to death don't get me wrong, but seeing them was like seeing a wasteland that I call the tri-cites. Everything moves much slower there. I like that, but only for a bit I think. I like it here. I really do, but I don't know it still is missing something that I need, so I know this wont be my final stop in life.

BTW I am acually getting sick. I hurts to talk. I think I might be getting a sore throught. EWWW. that is never fun.

Okay so my brithday was amazing. I hung out with really cool people and did amazing things. We went to dinner instead of iceskating, went to a party and QFC which is a grocery store instead of Neighbors which is the gay club, and then watched a movie which I left half was threw. It was fun. I have a very good time. Then to top it off my mom and sister were here for the weekend. I watched Hairspray which was a great movie. Then we also watched Pirates of the Carrabien also. I LOVE THAT MOVIE. It was my first time seeing the last one. It was so romantic and I had dreams about it. It was just an amazing movie. Well okay so that was all good and dandy.

That about sums up my B-day fiasco. Then to the social things. I actally went to the GSA club meeting and it was actually good. AKA not just a bunch of high school guys gathering to talk about sex. It was good and I think it might actually be benificel for me to actually go there regualrly. I am also working on a guy. Just to let you know and it he really cool, but I think we might just end up as friends. I am still working out reguarly and I am actually gaining weight. Which is a good thing because I LOOK like I am losing it. I am putting on muscle. I am happy with me right now. I think I might actally be able to shop at A&F or Hollister and get the clothes that I like and actally have a sence of taste once I loose a few more pounds so to say.

School is going great for me. I am not over burderdened. Which is nice. I have just he right about of stuff to do. I should be doing homework right now because I have to do TWO labs and a pre-lab. That is okay though. It wont take that long I don't think. They were pretty easy things. I did take two of my mid terms. The marine biology one was nice. I think I did realyl good on it, but this little voice in the back of my head is like YOU FAILED. Which is wouldn't be suprised actually because I tend to remeber the things I self taught myself, and some of that was wrong. So that was that. THe chem fianl was easy. I only missed one problem I think because I had NO idea how to do it.

So other then that I think you are about as up-dated as you could possible be. Let me think, Birthday, Social, School and friends. Okay so the friends issue is starting to get on my nerves because I find that people change on according to who they are closest to. I do it also. It sucks, but atleast TRY to remain true to yourself if nothing else. Some people don't even do that. It makes me angry that people can change so fast. Ohh well really I guess. I can't help peoples personalities. Woot woot

So that covers it. I am happy though. I have got things off my chest and I am going to go to the gym because it closes at 6 and I didn't workout on friday. Woot woot. So I am going to leave you to read my sencelessness.

If you are reading thing that means I love you like the day is long. and more then you will ever know.

~Branden

The weekend!!!

I don't really know what to write about right now, so I guess I will give you an update on my life. There isn't anything to say much. I am just sort of waiting still. It really kind of sucks. But that is okay, I am determined to fix that. But any way so this weekend was really kind of fun. I actually came out of my slump of missing home and was like people. If you can imagin with me for a second. I think it was kind of like a badly bruised squirral, that desided to look out the hole even though it was badly bruised. I don't know this week hasn't been hard I guess, this is just starting to ride on me. I am getting to know people. The right kind of people. I am conflicted still because I did try to make and honest effort to be friends with Hilde's roommate, but I can't. She is just not my kind of person. I am tried to tell Hilde that but Hilde claims that she is good for her. And I can see where in part she is, but I still think the bad out weights the good. Anyway, I think I might just stop stressing over that. Anyway, I am staying on top of all my school stuff like crazy. I haven't been pushed to get anything done really quick. AKA, I think college is a breeze compared to last year so far. I am doing good for what I am right now. There are some really cool people on my floor and I am starting to really like them. One, his name is Josh, was part of the drum core. So naturally we clicked. He is a cool guy, sadly he is straight. But unlike the guys in the TC guys here have no adversion to hanging out with me. Which is awsome. I don't know I am happy hear it is just that I am working really hard to change my surroundings again. I did that all through high school. I never really noticed it actually, till I was trust into a new area. Like as in I am now having to find the good and the bad, and seperate it. Here though it is a lot let clear and defined. Which is what is mostly getting me down I guess. Time is all I need, just time. Sadly though that isn't what a person like me wants to here with no patients. So anyway, I think I will let you guys go with the actual sum of events this weekend.

Friday, Hilde and that group went to a frat party. I hung out with them while they were getting ready. Came home at like 11 and watched ghost stories till 12. The next day I hung out with Hilde's group again and we all went to pike street market and had fun there. Then went out with Hilde's mom and every one. It was really fun. Came home to finish homework while they went shopping. Ended up hanging out with Nicoloe, Kat and Josh. Talked what was like forever, and watched Moulin Rouge. It was amazing. Then sunday I actually did my homework all morning. Hung out with Kat Josh and Zoie. Then I am here after finally falling asleep at 2 in the morning because dumb people like to play cards till that time in the morning. It was aggrivating. Ohh well it is all good.

Summed up, good weekend, hard week, missing everyone, but refuse to let myself get down!!!!

LOVES~
Branden